G-Spot Orgasm Washing Away The Pain Of The Past

[Some of the women I work with have professional lives, and cannot do a video testimonial, or even use their real names. I honor that, and hold a safe space for them to nonetheless express what receiving a G-spot female ejaculation orgasm has meant for them. Here is the latest recipient of my healing gift.]

This story begins long before ever having met Jay Vincent, yet is crucial to the overall understanding of my desire for complete sexual freedom.

For all of my adult life, I have never faced challenges with attaining orgasms. However, during the height of the learning curve associated with knowing all that the female orgasm entails, I experienced a series of encounters and relationships that ended up being detrimental to my overall sexual well being … experiences which ended up creating blockages and deep-seated fears that were heavily rooted in my sexual psyche.

Over the course of a few short years, I began to accept the “fact” that the orgasms my body was capable of producing were “wrong”; that my innate desire to embrace the Divine Feminine was selfish and subsequently punished. These feelings that were created during a time of sexual exploration were quashed … locked away in boxes … and buried deep within my conscious mind. It was okay to experience an orgasm … even a semi-full-body one … it was no longer okay to be sexually “free”. Being “free” created insecurities in others … for which I was directly blamed.

For 22 years, these fears and feelings were locked away … combining with other fears to create a series of failed marriages and relationships. Fast forward to this year … One month ago, a dear friend of mine posted a blog link to an  experience that she recently had … an experience that she shared in writing with my husband. Upon seeing this link and reading the words, I came face to face with one of my deep-seated fears: losing my husband to another woman. Over and over, I read her story … and instinctively reacted. The reaction that surfaced surprised me … it was not one of accusation … but one of gratitude, appreciation, and forgiveness.

Buried within her story was a key … a key that would open that box of fears that I had so carefully kept locked away all of these years. She advised me to ask the Universe for help and guidance. I did … and within two weeks, I had the pleasure of meeting Jay for the very first time … For two weeks, my husband and I took the time to get to know Jay on a personal level … revealing to him my request to the Universe and my desire to release the blocks that I had been carrying all these years. It was during those two weeks that I also experienced the releasing of many fears that were peripherally associated with those tied to my sexual bondage.

We talked about the experiences which had created these blocks and fears and set a date for my release using the techniques of G-Spot release for female ejaculation orgasm. Amid the lovely décor of a local hotel room, Jay created a safe space for my experience. Using Reiki techniques and a guided meditation led by Jay, my chakras were opened and joined to full capacity.

I was then blindfolded and my clothing was removed. For one with such a strong Alpha personality, the blindfold aided me along my path toward complete vulnerability … sensory deprivation in the form of sight heightens the other senses. What followed after the placement of the blindfold was excitement and arousal to the highest level possible … all taking me into complete surrender. I was then led to the table and placed in a state of complete relaxation.

There was a spot on my lower back that received extra attention … I learned much later that Jay had felt a “blockage” of sorts in that area, quietly hidden beneath a tattoo that I had done so many years ago, right in the area of my Solar Plexus Chakra – the chakra which holds court over Self Esteem.

As Jay’s masterful technique increased in intensity, waves of arousal coursed through me … from head to toe … inside and out … building in intensity toward the ultimate release. I lost all concept of time and space … riding a tsunami of arousal. When my first orgasm decided to crest and break, it felt as though I was walking through fire, unharmed … an explosion of feelings escaping in my screams of pleasurable delight. Twice more, Jay brought me through these incredibly amazing orgasms before bringing me back to Earth. I could have spent the next 24 hours in that perfectly, amazingly, blissful state … but the need for water was a priority … the session closed and ended. My husband was present during the whole experience.

It was while in the shower afterwards that I experienced the full release that the session had triggered. As though a doorway had opened, I fell against the shower wall, sobbing in pure joy. Waves of emotion washed over me … allowing me to see and love the complete release of all those fears … all the shame associated with the embrace of my sexuality that had been imprisoned in those boxes of my subconscious mind. With the hot water cascading over my naked body, I watched those fears disappear down the drain … allowing me to emerge completely cleansed, stepping fully into the presence of a sexual be-ing.

We remained in that hotel room for another hour … maybe two… reveling in the new energy that filled our hearts and souls. It took another 24 hours before I was able to fully realize how the session had affected me. My husband wished to make love to me that night, but I was exhausted … physically and emotionally drained.

After a solid night’s sleep, I awakened as though a new person … completely whole, inside and out. An internal peace never before felt permeated my entire be-ing. I felt alive. I felt the energies of the Universe coursing through my veins. For the first time in many years, I was able to see and feel the Divine Feminine within … the shadows were gone … emotions and feelings now free to travel back and forth with nothing present to block them any longer. I am grateful to Jay for his role as Gate Keeper … for showing to me the keys necessary for unlocking those doors and lighting the path before me. I am blessed by his friendship and his unconditional love.



Teargasms – Releasing the Emotional Baggage

Today, I was honored to initiate another seeker in the ways of feminine sensual connection of heart, mind, body, spirit, and vagina… Let me tell you my version first, then I’ll share her written testimonial with you. My highest priorities are safety, discretion, and honor, so her name is withheld for her privacy.

“Don’t you cum without my permission!” I told her. I had already worked her to a point of being highly excited, and was hearing things like “Oh THAT’s new!” as I applied the techniques of sacred release, I was prepared for another 10-15 minutes of this workup. We had been in the process of preparing her for female ejaculation for about 2 hours so far at this point.

All of a sudden, I felt her body respond in a way that I knew to expect. I heard her start screaming, and I heard the magic sound of ejaculate escaping her pussy. I changed positions to maximize the experience, and what happened next was nothing short of tsunami of the vagina. It was all over me, her, and the sheets were soaked. She was still screaming. I kept going a bit, then eased her out of it. Female ejaculation was happening.

“You’re in trouble, I teased her.” You came without my permission!” She was a bit dazed, and said “What happened? Did I do that?” I told her  to look at the liquid she had just sprayed all over the place. A pool of clear liquid rested on the bed where her ass was. Her legs and tummy were covered, and I had to stop and clean my glasses.

Three of these later, I was working to bring closure to her experience. I wanted the experience to be fully healing for her. Her screams were so loud on this fourth mind-bending orgasm that she instinctively grabbed a pillow to mask the guttural primal scream escaping from her body. I physically felt a shift happen in her body, and she looked up at me afterwards and said “What was that? Did something come out of me?”

I said “It felt like you had a teargasm and that you let go of something.” She burst into anguished sobs and let out the emotion that she had held inside her. It wasn’t important what caused it. What was important was that she felt safe to let this out. I embraced her softly, stroked her hair, and told her “I’m honored to hold space for you in this way. Let it out.”

THIS is healing.


Now here are her words about what she’s learned about holding a safe and sacred space in this manner:

I just got transformed.
By a tsunami.
That came out of me.

But allow me to back up a bit …

For years, I have been on a journey of deep personal transformation – following my cry to get “truth at all cost”. I wanted freedom at least as much as I wanted/needed oxygen. Maybe more. I’m like everyone else — I’ve sustained wounds, have tried many modalities, to varying degrees of healing … but wanted MORE. Much more.

One modality I’ve long been fascinated by is Tantra. I love the merger of spirituality and sexuality – the divine/human dichotomy that comprises our nature. But, while the spiritual side is encouraged, the sexual has been downplayed at best, and shamed, silenced and maliged, at worst. However, I am a product of a Western culture — there are nuances to the Eastern approach to Tantra that utterly escape me. How to resolve this dilemma, and follow the hunger of my heart?

Enter Jay Vincent and the expert hands on holding of my heart and vagina.

My friend, Jay Vincent, had shared the topic with me.  I wanted it. I had concerns about it. Would I be honored? Would I be objectified? Would I be, bottom line, safe?

I did some research. And while my mind had questions, my soul, my heart, my body, were saying “yes”. I have come to trust this inner-yes.

However … I also had to be sure that I could trust Jay.

Now, I’d only known Jay through Facebook – but Jay is a wide-open human being, sharing his life fully, and he had been consistenly authentic about himself, over the nearly two years that I’d encountered him. I was also a FB friend of his wife, and she’s about as adorable and genuine as they come. So, I took a chance … I said yes to the “yes” and I talked to Jay on the phone. That’s when I said yes to Jay.

Ultimately, I was saying yes … to ME! To owning my life, my spirituality, my sexuality, my body, my freedom, my healing. Myself.

We agreed to meet – setting up a location that worked for both of us, and he set the parameters. His first and deepest commitment was to me, my safety, my comfort, my honor. This was NOT about his gratification, but all about unleashing what was rightfully mine to have. He was the guide for this journey, and my body, my sexuality, was the vehicle for spiritual healing. NOT that we’re broken — we’re whole, complete, beautiful. But we have been so very conditioned, and our natures have been covered up with fear, wounds, angers, shame, lies, limitations. The “healing” is to remove what is not-us, so that we can shine forth.

Jay was completely professional in his demeanor, even though this was a very personal encounter. He remained fully-clothed at all times. There was no sex of any kind. He merely triggered the places that held issues, and turned on the release valve. The purpose of this was to release trigger points that “hold” emotion, tension, repression, shame, etc.

I’ve had mind-blowing orgasms before. THIS was something of another realm. This was a spiritual encouter, using my body. These were spirit-enlightening orgasms. I didn’t just “squirt” … I gushed. I geysered. I drenched everything and everyone in a 4′ radius. And not just once … ohhhhhh no, this happened four times, in rather quick succession. Shocking, and delighting me.

The emotional release I had was unprecedented … enormous. I felt like I’d given birth — and I believe that I shed a lifetime’s worth of pain, shame, fear, guilt, grief, and suffering. I birthed it out of me.

Jay held me through that entire experience, in a way that honored me, as a woman, as a human being. I felt cherished, treasured, safe, at every moment. I feel as though I found my brother, and that he helped to regain a missing, lost portion of my life.

I laughed, I cried, and I feel changed.

I am grateful.


Female Sensual Healing – My first giving of this gift

For the privacy and protection of the recipient of sensual healing, I have edited this to remove any personal point of reference that would betray confidence. I am most humbled to have taken part in this couple’s transformation, and the true connecting of the feminine with the yin energy.

Husband and wife were both present and participatory in this ceremonial connection of heart, mind body, spirit, and vagina. The testimonial describes the feelings that the recipient had of receiving full-body orgasms and the aftereffects of this.

I am awed to possess such a powerful gift, and give thanks to those that teach this knowledge concerning vaginal pleasure.

Here is her testimony about her healing experience through a session with me that delivered amazing female ejaculation and full-body orgasms.


Dear Jay Vincent,

Holy mutherfuckin’ mary joseph and jesus h christ! (Well now that that’s out Word is telling me it’s a run on, I beg to differ.) My entire world has been turned right side up. =] No one will believe me how epic, how wonderful this experience turned out to be! I had no expectations of the encounter other than everyone would somehow benefit on some level. I suppose I did expect to have fun, at least, but other than that, no requirements, of course.

I told you I wanted you to take over, and you were there and you know what happened. You did your taking over and fireworks! BLISS! I wish we had less people and more time for sure. ;) I had the most remarkable, ecstatic, almost psychedelic experience I could have ever imagined. The only period of time I felt more alive was the 48 hours I labored for my son, and the only pleasurable sensation that would even come close was dimethyltryptamine (DMT). I don’t know if you have ever partaken, if you haven’t you can trust; it remains “after what you shared with me” the most exquisite, immaculate, purely joyful experience I have ever been party to, true enlightenment. I don’t do drugs but I do partake in psychedelics and green occasionally. (I don’t view them as “drugs” there are a spiritual catalyst for personal growth and understanding the universe). I find what you shared with me to be very difficult to put into words. Incredible!

What a safe and healing place I found with you. I shed a massive weight off my spirit, with the added benefits of a prolonged full body orgasm! My senses were heightened and dulled simultaneously. The physical and spiritual planes were intensely extenuated and the mind finally turned off!!! I needed to submit, I wanted to. I was desperate to submit, in fact, I was desperate to strip my ego. I had little or no awareness of this need prior to you enraging my pleasure centers with your fabulous knowledge of feminine sensual pleasure.

After the experience I felt very blissful, relaxed, comfortable, empowered, accepted, safe, beautiful, loved: and all of those that I mentioned, I never truly felt completely, and I couldn’t imagine feeling them to that degree until you and last night =].

I have had my share of sexual experiences gone awry or experiences I didn’t want proceed without my consent. I don’t mean to be too personal, fuck it ya know, I think it’s important for you to understand what has taken place and what you did to help, truly, reconcile all of those disgraceful acts from my psyche. I have been taken advantage of sexually on several occasions in my short life. I have never been sexually brutalized or traditionally “raped” but I have been given two choices; go along with what I want or you will be hurt in some way or another. The perpetrators included four medical doctors, an xray technician, a dentist, more than one boyfriend on more than one occasion: all who must have felt overly entitled to my body; I said no they wanted yes. I was aged 7 through 21.

There is not always a positive response one gets for being seen as attractive or beautiful (as I have been told all my life that I am). For me, it has been a fucking liability, a self-esteem busting, self-conscious provoking drag through the mud. Those experiences left me feeling disconnected from reality and humanity. Those responsible for these experiences made me feel empty, ugly, and worthless; you name it, a no value piece of meat. When I became a dancer I took charge of my sexuality in a very profound way, I restored my honor by taking advantage of men in a similar way they took advantage of me except I turned the tables.

After the session with you, I feel I can see with much more clarity. I now see men as sacred beings who want desperately to be lovingly accepted by the feminine, just as desperately as I want to be lovingly accepted by the masculine. I see the sexes as equal. I see you as the catalyst for this; you were sweet and loving, professional and passionate. Lovingly sexy and sexual, gracious and humble and I feel as though you humanized the masculine for me for the first time in a very long time. You also graciously humanized the feminine for me, in a gorgeously accepting, loving and sweet manner. It was the most unexpected gift from you to have control stripped and replaced and washed over with grace and pure desire. <3

I have had orgasms that physically felt identical to the orgasms you gifted me with (maybe the other night was a bit more intense), but the physiological effects were stark and undeniable! I have squirted before, but not enough to wring the sheets out! I am still shivering occasionally almost 24 hours later, I trembled for over five hours after you went on your way, my senses were so alive and ecstatic I couldn’t stand the night breeze on my skin, so intense! I rolled around the bed naked and smiling and could not sleep; all I could do was smile and ramble about how amazing I felt, how enlightened and how grateful I was/am  =] I even felt sick when we went to drop you off I couldn’t believe the intense sensations; the car ride was over stimulating for my senses. I was, in fact, on a natural high I had no preparation for; I had no idea what I was getting into. I kept asking my husband if I was on something, I was in disbelief that just this session and your hands could do that to me!

What gorgeous space you created and you definitely opened so many possibilities for me and my husband both. I gave up control and it was positive, it completely erased the devastation of the times when I was forced to give my power up. I AM NOT A FUCKING VICTIM, ANYMORE! Tears are rolling down my face as I type this, and I mean what I say; I am a beautiful enlightened being with limitless potential for love and joy, there are no boundaries but those that exist in my mind the realty I live is the one that I create and I choose to create love, I choose to create beauty I choose the divine. This is real, it has been a couple days since the experience and I am feeling awareness, my body feels so different.

Very intense emotions are running through me and they are at this point approaching incomprehensible. The emotions show no sign of yielding it is a bit scary and I am trying my best to embrace it and let go and simply feel what my spirit is calling me to experience. My vagina is alive and wet ever since the session with you, I can’t stop imagining being there and feeling the rush of fluid pour down my thighs, feeling all those hands on and in me feeling the presence of so much masculinity and mmmm feeling the rhythm of your breathing on my neck as I came all over.

I am much more aware of individuals I find attractive and am lovingly undressing them and fucking each one in my mind’s eye. I have tried to repress this tendency in the past. My confidence is pure and I am unafraid to voice what I think or anything on my mind for that matter. My desires are more apparent and obvious to me. I am not fearful of anything at this point. I suppose I am a bit afraid of how long this sensitivity will last, the negative feelings are a bit draining and I don’t wish much to be around people unless I am loving on them or they are loving on me. I would recommend you tell women to mind themselves for a few days and maybe have a nice experience for themselves, to reflect and bask in the experience, go to the beach and read get a massage do something for mind and body.

I really do attribute the positivity of the situation to the training you received the attention to comfort and safety and pleasure were honored first and foremost and were paramount in the success of what my mind and body experienced. The code of conduct in relation to your sessions was honorable and made safety and comfort even more valid and fulfilled. I am certain of your sensitive nature and loving presence. You have changed my life: I am not fearful, I feel empowered on a level that has convinced me I didn’t know the meaning of the word prior to my experience with you.

Maybe I was just ready for it I was searching and longing for something but I didn’t know what. Enlightenment – it is so very exciting. I want to say thank you and be fucking careful who you share this with. This is very powerful shit.  I found it to be very intense and the results have been much longer lasting than I could have ever imagined, I still haven’t come down to earth, and yet here I am feeling more alive and connected to nature and more in tune with MYSELF than I ever have. Thank you once again for giving me this gift.
Camellia ~


Non-Orgasm Oriented Sex? YES!!!

Non-Orgasm Oriented Sex? YES!!!

WHAT? Have sex without having an orgasm????

Why in the hell would ANYONE want to have sex that is not orgasm oriented, you ask? Well, the reasons will surprise, and hopefully invite you into my world.

Most standard sex scenarios (including masturbation) are, in fact, orgasm oriented. The porn video industry and it’s offerings are deemed incomplete without the “money shot”, which is some form of a male ejaculation onto the female anatomy. The entirety of society, when referring to sex is usually inclusive of the orgasmic experience.

But once you consider it… when you hear from one who’s been there, and has the most incredible results to share from another approach, then you can at least give it some thought, and try it out to see how well it can work for you.

I always engaged in standard “Orgasm Oriented” sex, until this past year. I had, for 18 years prolonged my orgasm (Tantric) until I had given a partner their fill of orgasm, no matter how many that needed to be.  Yet, at the time they reached their fulfillment of sex, I would always release orgasm (ejaculate) at the end, and the energy drain would go with it, and I would be disinterested in sex for another day or two. (Libido crash)

Then Kalo started read about the Taoist sexual method of withholding, and we gave this method it’s due effort. To say we were impressed was an understatement. What resulted from changing our thoughts and practices has turned our world into a constant bliss. This type of sex: “Pleasure Oriented” sex, is Non-orgasmic oriented.


The gist of Orgasm Oriented sex is that there is an end point in sight, and both parties work to get to that end point. The gist of Pleasure Oriented, or non-orgasm oriented sex is that the journey is ecstatic, the distraction of having to reach an “point” (or bring your partner to an end point) is removed, pleasure is the only goal, and the fun keeps going and going and going! (This works exceptionally well for people who, for whatever reason, simply cannot orgasm.)

To put it bluntly, instead of worrying about “I need to get to a point of (her or my) orgasm, I get to focus on how well I am making her eyes roll back in her head, how much I’m rocking her world, and if she goes, she goes. (Kalo holds back from orgasm to a degree, as is described below.) My only goal is her pleasure, which reciprocally, makes me feel like I am the fucking man! Pleasing her sexually, pleases me. There’s no way to separate out the two.

We would (and still do occasionally, when time permits) engage in Pleasure Oriented sex three times daily, for about 2 hours of intercourse each time, for a total of about 6 hours a day of sex. Granted, this wasn’t every day. There would be one of these “marathon” days about once a week, and we still have those, although it’s down to about 4 hours currently. (Hey, we have 5 children, cut us some slack…)

Regardless, this greatly improved our ABILITY to have enjoyable sex more frequently and with the same amount of energy as each prior session! Without releasing the (male) orgasm, I was able to re-engage immediately, and often – the time between sessions is merely a meal break or an “OMG” reflective walk about, before going at it again.

(For those wondering, the Taoist method of “injaculation” is something I incorporate, and it’s almost like an orgasm, but without the release. It involves clamping down on a muscle point, or doing a pressure point block to stop the flow of ejaculate, and breathing (blissfully) through the sensation, and then proceeding on.)

The entire time, we are engaged physically, spiritually, and mentally, and it is mutual WORSHIP, and mutual surrender!

We’ve learned that the feminine can participate, or not participate as desired, because the energy dump that a man has, is not there for a woman. Our preferred method for the feminine is to give 3-5 during intercourse orgasms, and then to withhold from there forward. This decreases the sensitivity to a point that the peak of orgasm comes less frequently, and the peak/withhold can be enjoyed, while having an extended intercourse between peaks.

After a few times of this, knowing that I was going into sex with the goal of orgasm REMOVED, I had a mental switch that developed. It was “Okay, I’m not about orgasm for me. I’m about pleasure for her.” Once the switch was off, I had to reach in (mentally) and turn it back on, if I wanted to orgasm. This was AWESOME, because once the switch was thrown, I had the best time just rocking her world through her orgasm. My trigger was closed, mentally so it was full-bore rocking the boat while she was screaming in pleasure!


BETTER ~ YES, YES, A THOUSAND TIMES YES!!! In fact, it is like being totally sensitized(We use Sex Butter, which totally sensitizes the shaft of the male, sensitizes the female inside and out, and is just amazing, tastes and smells good, and contains several natural anti-bacterial, health-positive, all-natural essential oils) What I’m talking in this article, though, is the feeling of staying at peak for hours without the let-down or energy drain.  I CAN GIVE HER MORE PLEASURE, WHICH IN TURN PLEASES ME.

Guys, let me ask you a question: What scenario would you pick:

  • You and your partner(s) go at it for under an hour (usually 30 minutes ~ tops), you orgasm, you think she/they orgasm(s), and you leave feeling “satisfied” (which equates to satisfied, but tired and drained of energy)


  • You and your partner(s) go at it for 2+ hours (Depending on opportunity and tenacity),  she/they orgasm(s) as much as desired (or as much as able), you stay excited and at your peak the entire time, but do NOT orgasm, and when you stop, you’re ready for even more, but when you stop, you KNOW that your partner(s) has/have been manipulated sexually every way desirable, and you have left your partner(s) undoubtedly satisfied, and JUST IN CASE, you’re ready to give them more, if needed!

I prefer the last scenario…

And yes, I do orgasm, but only when I just feel like I am building up too much energy, and I have a special gift for the occasion.

Now before someone gets their mind in a twist and accuses me of thinking I have it all figured out, let me disclaim: I’m just telling you what works for me, and as long as everyone is happy, do what you want! It’s either about mind-blowing sex that pleases both parties regardless of the outcome, or it’s about just sex that pleases only one party.

Life is a pathway of learning allowance and love, and I am thankful to have seen this article. I have to admit, my eyes, through her article, are opened even further to the fact that COMMUNICATION is a required foundation for great sex.

And I’m thankful, being in open relationship, and on a path of sharing love and healing, that I know now to include questions about how things are felt, perceived, and what abilities may be different in sexual situations before proceeding to try and fit things in a “one-size-fits-most” set of methods.

Live your life. The world is your oyster. Go shuck it. Do so, however, with the utmost respect for those with whom you share the world. <3


In the dance of sex, there is surrender and taking, there is dominance and submission, there is waiting, and there is active pursuance of orgasm or pleasure. One party pursues or dominates while the other waits or submits, and the roles are often switched.

While often pleasure is mutual, because of the joyful reward of seeing the pleasure on your partner’s face, and seeing their body react to your touch and voice and actions, there is a certain level of magick that occurs when one party is in frame to totally give to the other partner. This works both ways, and while I’m talking about heterosexuality, I would presume that this works the same way in homosexuality as well.


Let me acknowledge AND affirm that when two partners mutually pleasure each other, afterplay, or aftercare, is very important. Touching, caressing, holding, and affirming the other partner is akin to tying up the act of sex into a silk pillow, where it can rest protected, memorable, and safe, in the mind and psyche of the parties involved, until the next time this gift is opened and enjoyed.

As a student of sexuality, and a service provider of sexual coaching and touch, I’ve observed something that I believe needs to shift. Men are given a bit of shame for “being sleepy” after sex, or just rolling off going to sleep. Looking deeper reveals that more is happening. Yes, some guys just roll off and go to sleep. But a man can truly harness this space and use it to transmute negative energy into positive power, through the sexual bypassing of the sympathetic nervous system (Fight or flight, for a man). Instead of going into sleep, the man who wants to process his rage can do so in this safe space after his orgasm.

There is a magick dynamic in this event that I want to explore with you, in hopes that you see more than just what your eyes tell you.

When a man orgasms, as is the case with a woman, there is a multitude of hormonal/chemical activity that takes place in the body. (click for link explaining hormonal release)


Prolactin is a hormone that makes a man sleepy. I’ve observed, however, during my last 10-15 orgasms, that instead of sleep, peaceful and safe meditation can be entered into in this time.

I can’t speak for all men, but I’ve noticed that core real desire is to be at peace. While I often stay in adrenaline, I really am pursuing peace. The main place this peace – this unquestionable peace can occur, is just after orgasm.

Ironically, it’s also a VERY safe space to process out rage. Let me explain.


I always give “intent energy” when ejaculating, and I hold this frame throughout the orgasm. There was an orgasm recently, when I focused on processing the rage within me. The rage I held was from being control-programmed by society, rage for expectations that I’m incongruent with (such as being valued by the amount of money I can produce), and other rage that lies within each of us in varying forms and degrees.

When I focused on processing and releasing this rage, I told my partner I was going to zone out to process this, and would meet back up for afterplay in a bit. She agreed, and it was the best gift that she could have ever given me. Let me repeat that. IT WAS THE BEST GIFT SHE COULD HAVE EVER GIVEN ME.

Through the allowance of my partner, and my own self-allowance, I was able to go into a semi-dream state, in this hormone-heightened peace, and I was able to visit my anger in a way that was totally without (actual) harm to anyone, yet in full allowance for me to process it in a way that society would not allow. (I may have kicked someones ass in my mind, but it was only in my mind, and without actual harm to the mental recipient of said ass-kicking.)

The result was that my freedom from this rage started to happen. I exited that peaceful state, and re-engaged in afterplay for her, feeling about 65% lighter because of that processing I had just completed. I laid that much of the battle down, and was able to hold that as a memory where my rage and I came face to face, and I obliterated it, at least partially. Repeated sessions in this same manner increased the processing, and after a few times of diving into this post-ejaculation meditation, my peace with this former rage was palpable and distinct. I could taste, feel, breathe, and see peace everywhere.

HOW TO DO THIS:  The processing of your rage is done by diving into the deep, safe (No Fear) space that is YOURS immediately after masculine orgasm. Orgasm is about bypassing the sympathetic (fear based) nervous system, and moving into the parasympathetic (no fear) nervous system. No right, no wrong, exists in this space, and judgment is not present, so you can express and process this in a way that allows you to totally feel your feelings, express those feelings, and then walk away feeling better for having had the experience. THAT is powerful.

This (processing through my rage) all happened in my mind. I didn’t have to actually scream at anyone, touch anyone, or any other thing that happened in this dream state.

WOMEN: A woman who allows a man to travel into this place, by allowing him to immediately recede into a sleepy meditation, is a woman who is TRUSTED as a safe space for the warrior to lay down his head. This is where HEALING occurs.

And, in my mind,the effect of processing my rage was that I was (in my mind) heard by all those who I had been hesitant to engage. I had repainted my feelings, by expressing them. Now, I’m truly in a more powerful place, because I know how to process rage in a safe space. That safe space is in the prolactin dump that my ejaculation causes. The allowance to use this magick is totally dependent upon a partner who EMBRACES, rather than shames this mechanism.

Men get sleepy? No, men have an opportunity, with the right partner, to walk in magic. Then, afterplay can occur.

Explore the possibilities.


The Problem With Criminalizing Vaccine Refusal…

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ABOUT LEGAL MAGIC – The entire legal industry, and our society is made up of words. These words have fluid meanings, and that fluidity is used as magic to hook you into presumptions – presuming that you know what the words are supposed to mean. Presuming that you’re supposed to do what’s asked, without question or alteration from the course that everyone else takes… (You’re still allowed to be an individual)

Let’s imagine that refusing to vaccinate yourself or a child is or becomes a criminal act

When you go to the doctor, are you required by law to disclose ANYTHING? Well, NO. You aren’t required to disclose anything there. This is why, when doctors started putting questions about having a gun in the home, there was no requirement to answer it. It’s a private matter, and doesn’t affect the ability of the doctor to practice medicine (although they’d argue differently).

Well, if you disclose that you HAVEN’T been vaccinated by your own choice, then the doctor is going to act in an adversarial manner to your choice, and if you are allegedly committing a criminal act, then you have the right to avoid self-incrimination.


WARNING: Your doctor could refuse to treat you if you refuse to disclose this information, but doing so, if it is criminal to not be vaccinated, would mean that the Doctor is refusing to treat you based on you demanding civil rights (specifically the right of the 5th Amendment to not testify against yourself). If the Doctor refuses to treat you based on your exercising your 5th Amendment right, well, that doctor doesn’t have malpractice insurance that covers that, very likely, and that Doctor could be incurring PERSONAL liability.

That’s a civil rights lawsuit, at the very least. And that lawsuit needs to happen, and here’s hoping it doesn’t require the death of a patient (and an additional wrongful death claim – or murder charge) on top of it.

(If it’s a doctor you’ve used for years, this may be moot, because they may already know the answer).

But if you’re visiting the ER, or a new doctor or any other setting that asks?


THIS ENTIRE ARTICLE is absent intent as legal advice, and is presented as educational, informational, and entertaining.

With that disclaimer, I’m right.

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